New love

The promise of new love can send thrills down your spine, or your inner thighs, depending on the conversations that you are having and the thoughts that you are thinking. On most days, the promise of new love offers calmness in one’s life- not too much passion, no accountability, the freedom to have long conversations, and sometimes short.

On most days, one can be happy with the promise of new love. It offers a certain kind of naivety that leads you to believe that all will be good. It offers what a real relationship fails to offer- a happy ending to all your days. The promise of new love comes with lonely nights where the embrace of a pillow seems enough to calm your nerves. The promise of new love seems perfect.

But, then the sad nights arrive. An argument with a friend. The re-surfacing of a long buried incident. A bad day at work. Or that long-drawn sorrow that comes upon you stealthily, climbs up on you and bothers you because you do not know its origin. Those nights do not become better with the embrace of a pillow. They stay the same. They suck away at your heart till you feel hollow in your chest.

And then?

Can you call the stranger who offers this promise of love? Can you ask them to keep breathing on the mic of their phones or earphones so that you feel less lonely? Can you connect a video call and fall asleep knowing that they are watching you? The promise of love seems insufficient when lonely nights come along. They eat away at your insides. The promise of what will be can then go screw itself.

The promise of love is just that. A promise.

Do not fall for promises, I say.

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